I have been used to peace and quiet for quite a few years and it is difficult to have that taken away. I know I must be there for Dick around the clock but the absence of solitude is difficult. John came over to install a doorbell gadget so when I am in the basement and Dick is upstairs and needs help, he will be able to push the button and "ding-dong" me. I don't really know what I think of that!
Dick still has anxiety about his pump for just cause. If the power is cut off or shuts down for any reason, he will go from 100% blood flow, down to 10% flow. More than likely he would pass out and it would be an emergency situation. I guess I can fully understand and justify the reason for his nervousness yet my selfish side does not want to be tethered to a bell. Most married people I know are different from each other and Dick and I are no exception. He prepares for all possibilities and tends to worry and I trust God for all things and "fly by faith." All I can say is that it is a good thing I don't have the LVAD!
Today marks one month since Dick had his surgery and today he is actually driving himself over to the clinic to get his blood checked. I'm sitting in the kitchen in total peace and quiet and for the first time in about two months, although Dick is doing well and we are finally normalizing, I didn't realize how much I miss solitude until I didn't have it, so for about an hour I am enjoying the quiet time I so love.